Sunday, 27 June 2010
for the blog that i been wanting to write...
it alrdy almost 2 mnths since the insident...
but i dun blame him cause me myself to blame...
evertyhing that i done for the past 7 mnths is still linger in his mind...
n how could he forget abt it...
but it been a torturing state for me n him..
each time i went to werk...
cause it was that werk that it all begins...
i dun wan to remember it and i wan it to forget...
but still we fighting against what happen...
i thought cause of love that makes us inseparable...
but i was wrong he still keep on toking abt it...
his heart is controlling his anger...
if it was 1st i wont mind...
i did give him suggestion that we separate for awhile..
if he okie n me okie then we mit...
but he dun wan that...
he keep on thinking the negative thought...
oh god i reli tired if this whole thing...
i wish for it to stop so that it wont bother me...
i was to blame for everything...
sorry is not even the good words for me to say...
but still im saying this to him...
im sorie im make u sad
im sorie if thing is different back then...
im sorie if that is ur decision...
im sorie if u are hurt again...
im sorie if u keep on thinking abt it...
im sorie if im too stubborn...
im sorie if i phafe betrayed ur trust n love...
im sorie for everthing...
i just love u n oni u in my heart...
but if thing is gonna tough i wonder if we can still make it...
-RaYu-
1:28 am
Thursday, 3 June 2010
Haloo...
been since i last drop an entry...
yeah been thinking alot these days...
i feel like i not alive eversince that day...
hmm... but with him i will feel different...
i dun really feel anything right now...
my mind is full of his face..
i mean zaidi's face..
and i cant think straight...
day goes by and i feel i not myself...
mind is haywire n i goin to school with a long face...
happy outside but not happy inside...
happy being woth him but not happy when not with him...
till my mood of study did swing abit...
hmm... tell me how am i suppose to let it go..??
im too a human...
man i need a space out...
*ps: just hope next week exam will be gone smoothly...
-RaYu-
Labels: i love you untill the end...
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